Monday, January 14, 2008

"What did you know, and when did you know it?"

I chatted on the phone tonight with someone who would absolutely like to know that DH and I are trying IVF. She loves us and would want to offer good thoughts and support. But I didn't say a word about it.

She called to get my advice on vapor barriers (true story). I didn't have any, though (also true). We talked for a bit and were just about to hang up, having not discussed me at all (yes!), when she stopped and tossed out a breezy "Anything going on that I should know about?"

"No," I said, my mouth snapping shut to both create and wait out the ensuing awkward silence. I finally uttered a slightly weird follow-up "Nope" and made plans to talk again soon.

I felt guilty for a bit for not taking the opportunity to introduce the topic. Yet for whatever reason, I didn't feel comfortable in that moment. And I have to be able to share or not share as I please, right?

There, I have absolved myself. Good!

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