Monday, November 10, 2008

Wish you were here!

If you were here, I'd offer you some tea and then wow you with my 2-test series of positive HPTs. They are still too faint to scan or photograph well, so you really need to be in the same room to appreciate yesterday's whispery pink test line (which showed up after several minutes) and its remarkable transformation into today's "Show me your urine, and I'll show you my face" bubblegum-hued beauty.

I know. It is inappropriately early to squawk about being pregnant. Gauche, really. I am only 10dpo/7dp3dt. Too many unknowns. And way too many knowns: 43 years old. Low odds for sustained success. First-hand experience losing a chromosomally abnormal fetus made from a perfect-looking embryo. The betas might stink and the baby might die. (Harsh, yes, but I want to be clear that I see clearly through my misty-gray glasses.)

However, I've made a personal vow to embrace the light of this last chance. I'm choosing hopefulness over gloom and choosing it NOW. Surely that will be difficult some days. But I've got it covered today.

13 comments:

Anonymous said...

Let me be the first to say "Congratulations"!

And you deserve every right to be as excited and frank as you wish to be!

I will be keeping all fingers and toes crossed for you...

Lisa said...

Congratulations! I can't wait to see your lines and to therefore share in your excitement even more. I know that anything I say now is a cliche-"it only takes one golden egg to make it!" "I'm 42 and I did it-lots of ladies have, your eggs can do it too!"....but I also know that when it's YOU yourself dealing with these things, the platitudes and stories of everyone else don't mean much....so I'll just say congratulations again, and I love your attitude. Enjoy every minute of it, no matter how many of those minutes there may be.

(But I have a really good feeling about these embies!)

Cabaret said...

What wonderful news! A day at a time - and I hope they all add together to make nine glorious months. Congratulations.

BB and MTB said...

Cautious CONGRATULATIONS!!!! Enjoy every minute! Sending good vibes for a wonderful pregnancy and healthy baby.

orodemniades said...

EEEeee!!!

Also, my word code spells out sycle...

Polly Gamwich said...

YAY!!! Congratulations!!!

You MUST choose celebration and hope today ... you've just gotta.

I pray for a comfy uterine lining and some very healthy embryo's nestling in for a good 36 week journey.

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

Opus #6 said...

That fact that you have a bubble-gum hued line at 10dpo is a GREAT sign for a chromosomally normal pregnancy. Early strong hpt = sticky bean in my book!!!!!

Erin said...

Wow! Awesome!

Evil Stepmonster said...

Embrace that bubblegum-hue and be ever so hopeful! Great news!

Karen said...

I truly hope it is hope fulfilled for you this time. Congratulations.

Joonie said...

Congratulations! You absolutely have every right to take in any and all victories (small and large). I'm so glad that you are living in the moment. And I wish you continuously awesome moments to come!

Tara said...

YAY!!! This is great news!

Celebrate today - we cannot worry about things we cannot change tomorrow (easier said than done, I know).

Hugs!!!

Ms Heathen said...

What fantastic news, Lisa!

Joining with you in your sense of hopefulness, and sending you many many positive thoughts.