Today is one of the May milestone dates I've been wanting to get through. One year ago today was transfer time for IVF
#2, and let me tell you: That day was magical for me. Everything felt right. I was, truly, in the moment — in sync
with DH, my body, the process, my medical team, and the world. I felt love for (and loved by) everybody I encountered. I remember what I wore, what I ate, who I talked to, and what I did all day long. And that magical feeling (aka profound gratitude) carried me through another several days. (You know, until it was time to get scared again!) During that time, I frequently eyed the picture of "the kids
" and talked to all 4 of them in utero, sending my love and coaching any that felt strong enough to stick with mama.
Even knowing how it all turned out down the road . . . and knowing what came next, and then next, and then next . . . I wouldn't trade that day for anything. The experience opened me up in ways I can't quite describe but know will stay with me forever. And for that I rejoice.
P.S. Today — this year's
May 5 — brings a fresh reason to rejoice. Sweet Polly over at In2MeSee
got to see her perfect-looking little bean's strong heartbeat for the first time. You GO, Polly!!
I'm glad you took away such a positive feeling from a negative outcome. That shows h ow much of an amazing woman you truly are.
Thinking of you today, you are amazing. It is rare that us girls get a "good day." I am glad you still have good feelings towards that "good day." Hoping for more "good days" in your future.
What a beautiful post. Many hugs to you, sister.
Just wanted to send you my love and let you know how inspiring you are. There are great things out there for you, I just know it. HUGS.
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