You know, I'm just not sure how to handle this blog right now. I keep toying with the idea of switching to a pregnancy blog . . . one that the family can actually access for news. But then I think, Where will I write about what I'm really thinking? I can do that in a regular journal, of course. But that's a whole different kind of outlet. It is for me, anyway, and I do like certain aspects of blogging.
I'll keep the status quo for now. Probably until I'm out of the first trimester and start actually talking about the pregnancy in real life. Honestly, it's STILL not feeling altogether real to me. Our immediate families know, and so do several friends and a few of my colleagues, but we've mostly kept a lid on it. (Not that I'm not positive some people we've told have told others. But that doesn't directly affect us.)
Later, I'll likely start something for general public consumption but maybe keep blogging here about my take on being pregnant after years and years of thinking I never would be. That "take" isn't all somber and full of fear and doubt . . . but is reflective of my particular path, which I really don't discuss with very many real-life souls.
My 9-week ultrasound happens tomorrow. Hoping to see good growth and a nice solid heartbeat! If we do, that will be my last appointment with the RE.